Some random images

With some Photoshop.

Not that blond really, it's the lighting of that room. I wish I was.

Felid Romance by ~CoolBlue-Gord10 on deviantART
Latest photomanipulation.

My Mount & Blade character and one of my castles.

I love çoklet as Christmas

This is something witty that I had to share.

I usually accumulate my writings into long posts for publishing. That long posts include my thoughts about some events and my works' progress status for a certain period of time. (Yes, I'm aware that these two sentences weren't that good). But I couldn't wait to post this.


This is an audio by Nikolas Sideris (we meet each other in AGS community) about chocolate. Consists of a 'delicious' music track and speakings about chocolate in different languages. The main reason why I'm posting this is that I'm one of the people who contributed for voice actings. The other reasons are the remaining splendid works of the other people, especially Nikolas's who composed the music.

Courage

Courage is the first of human qualities because it is the quality which guarantees the others.

Aristotle

Everyone has talent. What is rare is the courage to follow that talent to dark place where it leads.

Erica Jong

Posting quotes merely is not my favourite posting style, but I don't feel like writing much in these days. I may write a long post after a short time, though.

Eğer okunup okunmadığıma dair bana hiçbir yorum gelmiyorsa o zaman istediğim zaman istediğim dili kullanabilirim sanırım.

Kötüye gidiyorum. Geçen gün Aşırı Doz Yanılsama'ya yazdığım yazıyı kopyalayayım:

Geçenlerde cesaret kavramı üzerinde düşünürken şunun farkına vardım: Zayıflıklarımı göstermekten çekinmem, kibirli/gururlu bir hareketten ziyade, zayıf görünmeye karşı beslediğim bir korkunun sonucu. Zayıf olmanın kendisinden bile korkmuyordum zayıflığımın görünmesinden korktuğum kadar. Hatta belki bu yazıyı İngilizce yazmamamın sebebi bile sadece bu karışık cümleleri çevirmeye üşenmem değil?

'Hayattaki problemler' hakkındaki görüşlerden birisi, sorunların birer buzdağı olduğu ve bizim sadece ufak bir kısmını görüyor olduğumuz. Benim için bu geçerli değil, ben suyun altındayım. Sorunlarımın, algıladığımdan çok daha büyük olmadığını biliyorum. Kötü giden şeyleri düzeltmek için imkanlarım var, sadece bu uzun zaman alacak; buzdağı, elinde imkanlar olmayanlar veya imkanları kullanamayanlar için.

Ama söz konusu akıl hastalığı olunca bu sorunu bir çığa benzetiyorum. Ufak, önemsiz bir kartopu yuvarlanıyor ve başka karları devirir. Su damlalarının miktarı bir seli sabit hızla artırırken, bu hız artışı bir çığda ivmeli bir şekilde gerçekleşiyor. Kendimi kötü hissettikçe ya insanlar benden uzak duruyor ya da insanları ben kırıyorum ve onları ben kaçırıyorum. Aylardır kimseyi kırdığımı hatırlamıyorum, ama neden bu kadar yalnızım? Başka 'sağlıklı' insanlar birbirlerini o kadar çok kırarken, küçük düşürürken benim yaptıklarım çok mu fazlaydı?


Aylardır aldığım tedavinin ağırlığı derslerimle ilgilenememe neden oldu, alttan 3 ders almam gerekecek. Bu yaz staj da yapamayacağım, sağlık durumum yüzünden. Ama beni üzen şey başarısızlık değil, hastalığımın hayatımı bu şekillerde etkiliyor olması. Gördüğüm tedavinin ne olduğunu kimseye söylemediğim halde bazen bana hakaret ediliyormuş gibi hissediyorum: "... manyak"!

Akıl hastası olduğum için kaybettiklerimin eksikliği hastalığımı daha da kötüleştiriyor. Hayır... Buna izin vermeyeceğim. İnsanların, arkadaşı olmaktan gurur duyduğu birisiyim, bunu sürdüreceğim.

Commodore 64 palette for Photoshop

I had said I am working on Commodore 64 game making, hadn't I? I came up with the idea of converting images to the C64 platform. Not that I'm seriosuly planning to use it, but it would be fun.

So I've searched the web for the Commodore 64 palette for Adobe Photoshop and found one, but it didn't work.

So I created that palette by my own. You can download it from here. It is an .act file for Adobe Photoshop v8, but I guess it would work for other versions, as well.

(Of course I didn't improvise those 16 colors, they are the real colors that was used by C64).














These are some results that I got.

News from my working, My tools, Features

Well, I had said I was preparing a long English post. I decided not to publish it, because I don't want to bore the readers with my mental health problems, their effects and how I am coping them. Not here.

Instead of it, I'll just tell how my workings are going and some featured works.

I've began working on BASIC. I am able to code some simple text based Commodore 64 games now. Of course it is not a part of my career plans, I know only a few people are going to emulate and play this games, but C64 game making was something that I had always wanted since my childhood. I just want to fulfill this desire.

I will have a lot of time to work on my new horror game, Reverie River. But I still can't make it as scary as I want.

My tools

I have been using two C softwares of mine for my certain needs for a long time. One of them is Playlist Number Finder, the other is Note Holding Pad.
It could be a tough work to find the song that you'd like to listen in a Winamp playlist consisting of thousands of tracks. The aim of this tool: Giving you the number/numbers and info/s of a song/songs in a playlist that contains an input word in its file name or song info. For example, if you are searching for the "Please Mr. Postman" song, you just need to type "post" to see the numbers of every songs those contain the "post" string inside.





The other tool works as a post-it. Haven't written a good English readme text for that software, but you don't need to understand Turkish to understand that tool, I think. Going to tell this software and some new other tools later.

Features

If you like Neil Gaiman or animation films, you'd probably have heard of Coraline.


Well, it was not as great as I expected, but I'd highly recommend you to see this film. Especially in a 3D theater, that really worths it.

The story had a great potential for a platform&adventure game like Psychonauts.


I abstain from showing artworks without artists' permission, so I have to be contented with giving the gallery links.

There was a great contest in DeviantArt: Wacom's Bring Your Vision To Life Contest. I believe that an amount of world's best artists had participated in this contest, the entries are that amazing! You can see the 50 semi-finalists here.

ABHEL's God of War, Deisi's Saint George and the Dragon are only the two of the entries I was sad that they weren't in the first 50.

If I had participated in this contest, I'd depict Sanity vs Insanity instead of Good vs Evil. I am not feeling evil at all.

Well, there are many other things that I'd want to feature and talk about, but let me keep this post shorter.

Octopus's Garden

I'd like to be under the sea
In an octopus' garden in the shade
He'd let us in, knows where we've been
In his octopus' garden in the shade

I'd ask my friends to come and see
An octopus' garden with me
I'd like to be under the sea
In an octopus' garden in the shade.

We would be warm below the storm
In our little hideaway beneath the waves
Resting our head on the sea bed
In an octopus' garden near a cave

We would sing and dance around
Because we know we can't be found
I'd like to be under the sea
In an octopus' garden in the shade

We would shout and swim about
The coral that lies beneath the waves
Lies beneath the ocean waves
Oh what joy for every girl and boy
Knowing they're happy and they're safe
Happy and they're safe

We would be so happy you and me
No one there to tell us what to do
I'd like to be under the sea
In an octopus' garden with you.

(No, this is not that text that I was preparing, but a song that I'd like to sing now)